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Ramblings For 10-06-09
death >>18:40pm<<
>> Mood | exhausted <<

so death is an interesting thing ..some people cry and get very upset and question why this had to happen and why such a good person had to leave this world so soon. others say it's the will of the almighty and we should not question why this person is gone and still other's, while sad that someone they loved is gone, are happy ..or at least not as sad ...that this person that they loved is no longer in the pain that she was in, that all the tubes and machines have been taken out and she looks somewhat normal again..instead of looking like some weird horror movie reject.
Today at around 2:30 I lost one of the best friends that i'll ever have, the kindest sweetest person that i will ever meet. She is the person that i patterened my life after, how i act towards others and all sorts of other little things that make me who i am that are too numerous to name. She put up a fight that most would have shied away from and came out on top for a time. In the end though all the extra surgerys and various internal organs being taken out and put back in got to her and she just couldn't take it any longer. I will miss her more than i care to let myself admit too. She was the only mother that i know that I could talk to about how we both thought that my grandmother, her mother, looked like a big eyed gremlin when we were tripping acid, yes i will miss her....by that same token though I know  that if there is that paradise that she believed in that right now she's there and no longer in any pain and no machines are helping her breathe and that, strangly enough, makes me smile just a little bit

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Ramblings For 05-18-05
It's 6:30 in the morning ...and for some reason i'm awake.. >>06:25am<<
I'm not sure why really..in the past month or so I just can't seem to sleep any thing close to resembling a normal sleep schedule. I try to go to sleep shortly after i get off work..usually around midnight or one at the latest..but then i just lie there and my mind wont stop racing. It falls into a rut..which usually has something to do with my mom and what i'm going to do ..if..when ..the inevitable happens. So far the, so called, specialists have done about as much as one can be expected to while their thumb is stuck up their ass...it's in part due to the fact that this doctor in houston is a very popular guy..so popular that he isn't taking any more patients and the only reason he's even looking at my mom is because he's doing a favor for another doctor...the downside to that is that since she's not an actual patient then he's not treating her as such..i.e.: about two weeks ago she went in for some tests..they did all the normal poking around and such and then it took them a week and a half to get back to sharon, my mom, to tell her..basically..nothing. They were nice enough, however, to tell her that since the tests where taken so long ago that there was really no way of telling if they were accurate or not so she would have to come back in for the same tests all over again...this time i'm sure they will take a least 3 weeks to get back to her ..heck maybe by then the tumor will have grown some..oh happy day. But wait ..there's more! My stepfather doesn't want sharon to go up to this cancer research place..in illinois i think...he would, or so it seems, rather her stay here and get no help..or treatment and he's stubborn enough that there is no talking to him...and if i were to even try it would just make things worse. Part of , what i think, the reason for him not wanting her to go is because he's afraid that she will go up ther and not come back ...except in a pine box..and that i can understand ..but the other half of the reason is because the doc that she's seeing..the one she's not actually a patient of...is one of the better specialist around and for some unknown reason he thinks the eventually he will start treating her like a patient instead of just giving up on her..which is how the doc is acting towards her now.

But enough of that.
Really, other than that..there isn't much going on. I'm still working at the answering service..where i've got more reading done than at any point in probably the past couple of years..hell in the past month i've worked my way up The Dark Tower series and am currently on the last book with only a couple of hundred pages to go...now the only question is ..will i be happy ..sad ..or just generally annoyed with how the whole thing ends.
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Ramblings For 03-19-05
slightly intoxicated post >>00:50am<<
>> Mood | -unknown- <<
>> Music | Moby -south side- <<

cause i ramble when i've been drinking )

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Ramblings For 12-22-04
>>23:05pm<<
So..yesterday a friend of mine was at work, on his lunch, and he started getting in a rather heated discussion with a pro-bush guy...you know the type that thinks that W is the cat's meow..and can't really do anything wrong. Now my friend is the exact opposite..hence the heated discussion. Anyway, towards the end of the conversion my friend makes a comment, something to the effect, of how he thinks that W will probably be taken out during his term Under normal circumstances this wouldn't be so bad..someone speaking their mind in a free country and all..but these a far from normal circumstances. It just so happens that another W'ite just happened to overhear his comments. This guy is apparently some sort of "well respected and prominent" business man in the community and he got rather angry at my friends comment and went and used his nifty little cell to call the head boss of the company that my friend works for and report what he thought to be a terroist threat against W. Now at first my friend was not aware of what all had transpired..until he was standing outside, still on his lunch, and this same fellow, that had reported him, comes up to him and starts to verbally attack him and tell him what he has done and how wrong he was for doing it and that he should probably be repoted to the government for making such a statement. Well one thing led to another and my friend is now on suspension for the comment and will probably loose his job over what he said. In addition to that it appears as if he was reported to the government as some secret service guys showed up as his house today and questioned him on the matter.

Interesting side note to this; this morning around 8:30 two cops show up at my door about a 911 call they received from my number. The weird thing was...their demeanor ..they didn't act like they were responding to a emergency call..maybe i'm just trying to see too much into it ..dunno. I do know that after they left they sat, in their cars, down the block for the next 20mins. It just so happens that the first person that my friend called, yesterday, after all this happened...was me. Coincidence...I sure hope so
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Ramblings For 12-07-04
>>20:59pm<<
>> Mood | blank <<

Ahh yes..nothing like family.
One of my aunts was nice enough to call my grandmother to wish her a happy b-day...which is all well and good. The downside is that she wasn't here so my aunt decided to talk to me for a bit...which always leaves me with nothing much to say and her doing most of the talking and then the most wonderful thing happens..she starts talking to me about church and god and the bible. She tells me how i should get back in church and how this version of the bible is much easier to understand than this version and so on. Normally anyone who starts in with this kind of thing I politely tell them what i believe in and so on and walk away. But it's family and if i started something with my aunt then it would filter back and make my life rather unpleasant..so therefore i just grin and bear it. Tonights fun time was her spending 15mins trying to find a specific word in the bible so that she could show me how much better her translation is in explaining something than the King James version. Actually she's still looking for it. The one thing i've learned in working in customer service and in dealing with most of my family is that as long as you say certain key words every now and again the person actually think you are listening to them.
Oh good! My grandmother just came home. I can now safetly give the phone to her!

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Ramblings For 11-29-04
>>10:46am<<
>> Mood | midly annoyed <<

I really think it's a conspiracy against me.
Sometime last night my cable went down...again. Normally it goes down when there is a bad rainstrom....but last night there was no storm ..nothing ..it just poof went away. I tried all the little things you are supposed to when your little modem starts to go blinky-blinky and nothing worked. Got up this morning and still the same thing...nothing.
Maybe the cable company just likes to screw around with me...maybe they just like my voice and want me to call in....maybe the tech guys that come out to look at the cable just want to see if i'll say sometning witty and give them some entertainment in their otherwise boring day....I don't know ..but i know it's a conspiracy. I know the tech guys don't mind me calling in..because all they have to do is run a quick check on my line and then tell me "I'm sorry sir we are going to have to send a tech out to your house" and that's it..end of call. Probably one of the quickest calls of that techs day. Then the cable guy comes out spends about 15-20 mins doing his thing and my cable is back up and running for the next couple of weeks ..until it rains ..or just goes down. I would switch compaines but they would use the same lines and what not ..so it probably woudln't do me much good anyway.
Ok well time to sit around and wait for the cable guy

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Ramblings For 11-07-04
>>23:28pm<<
>> Mood | oh so very tired <<

tired raning of a loon )

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Ramblings For 09-27-04
>>23:10pm<<
Well here i am.
I'm back up in the great nw..as anyone that keeps up with [info]archmage journal will surely know by now.
I was not able to drive up here like I had originally wanted to..it seems as if the state of Louisiana wants to wait as long as possible to actually give me my birth certificate ..thus preventing me from actually getting my drivers license. Normally this would not bother me and i would have driven up here anyway..but with my luck in the state of Washington for getting pulled over and put in jail I thought it was best to just fly up. The flight up wasn't so bad..I did meet this really sweet girl named April and we just happened to be on the same flight, up till las vegas, and so i at least had someone to talk with for a while anyway. On the odd side...I did manage to get slightly sun burned on the left side of my neck..just the left side too ..very odd.
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Ramblings For 11-07-03
>>23:29pm<<
>> Mood | sick <<

Slowly...ever so slowly i'm getting over being sick. It's still fun to be high on NyQuil though ...espically when i can sit in front of my computer, load up all my Mp3's and start a visualization program and just sit there and watch it for hours..that was fun:)


and Hail to the King baby!

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Ramblings For 11-05-03
...... >>15:45pm<<
I hate being sick.
I started fealing under the weather the day before halloween and it seems to only be getting worse.
Alot of cool stuff happened on halloween, but i don't feal like typing it all out now....one thing though ..if things play themselves out right i'll be getting a new(to me) izuzu rodeo and it will cost me nothing!
Time to down some more NyQuil
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Ramblings For 10-30-03
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee >>01:22am<<
Since Saturday i've been working out at the haunted house. It's been a blast! It's always a great thing when someone is willing to pay you to run around acting like a fool and scaring the little kids ..and sometimes the big six foot black man..who said he wasn't scared..but still managed to jump higher than most of the kids..
It's also a lot of fun what i do. I'm not one of the monsters inside the house waiting for you in a dark corner...oh no.. I get the lucky privilege of being outside entertaining the crowd while they wait in line...which makes me scaring the big black man all the more fun ..because he can see me coming ..:)
Anyway tonight was rather odd and probably , thankfully, something you would only ever see in Texas. Tonight was apparenlty Tejano night ..that's right ..Tejano. There was a stage and a couple of bands..the local Tejano radio station...lots of Coors Light and lots..and lots of mexicans..with big hats and bigger belt buckles. Tonight I got to find out how difficult it is to tell someone that doens't understand english that no this is not the line they are supposed to be standing in ..or no those aren't the right tickets ..you need these and you can get them over there
That and it's really hard to entertain someone that can't understand your making fun of them. I did figure out one thing though, no matter which band was playing...the music all had the same sound to it ..the same beat..that is now stuck in my head and wont leave
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Ramblings For 10-22-03
>>02:22am<<
Don't you hate it when you have one of those dreams that isn't really quite a nightmare in the typical fashion. One that starts off pretty decent, but then a very slight turn and bam you have a the makings of a wonderful nightmare. The kind of nightmare that you want to wake up from right then and there but can't. All you can do is continue to watch this odd , almost horrific, show that your brain is putting on just for you. One of those dreams that the images, as vauge as they may be, seem to stick with you long after you turn on the light. You keep looking over your shoulder expecting something from your dream to be there staring at you...even if you aren't really sure what that might be.
Heh. Here I was thinking I would be going back to sleep sometime soon...
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Ramblings For 09-08-03
>>22:29pm<<
For those that are curious here's what you have to sign for the riaa's amnesty deal
:)
I don't know if i like the idea of having to buy any boy-band albums
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happy happy joy joy!!! >>16:58pm<<
>> Mood | anxious <<
>> Music | information society -- what's on your mind <<

Well it's all set. I'll pick up the plane tickets tomorrow. Then i'll just have to wait till the 6th of october to fly up to portland and i'll be there for about 10days till the 16th of october. Only downside to all this is that i hate waiting....and now i must wait ....wait ..wait...maybe i could just construct a time machine and fast foward to the 5th of october yeah that makes a good plan
i have a paperclip, some gum, and a empty bottle ..wonder if i can macguyver that into something
...i hate waiting....

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The ship will have BFG's and rocket launchers... it has too >>03:08am<<
I just thought this was interesting..John Carmack(creator of DOOM..just in case you didn't know)has his own aerospace company. There is some sort of contest called X-prize ....the idea..to create a ship capable of taking 3 people into space and for it to return to earth safely ..the prize.. a cool 10,000,000 ..the reason for all this ..to jumpstart the space tourism industry so that everyone can be shot into the great vacum of space someday

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Your
Ultimate Roleplaying Purity Score
CategoryYour ScoreAverage
Hacklust17.92%
Slew entire Asgardian Pantheon with one hand while blindfolded
52.8%
Sensitive Roleplaying30.38%
All the game's your stage
53.4%
GM Experience100%
The power of the GM's screen compels you!
68.5%
Systems Knowledge91.67%
Played in a couple of campaigns
89.8%
Livin' La Vida Dorka49.43%
Has interesting conversations in public
62.1%
You are 64.67% pure
Average Score: 67.9%
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Ramblings For 09-05-03
Say your sorry and promise to never do it again >>18:24pm<<
>> Music | Rob Zombie- Dead Girl Superstar <<

So now in attempt to get those little guys that the RIAA hasn't already filed a lawsuit against the RIAA is now offering a amensty deal
according to the article there's a notarized statement that you agree to, promise to not conduct any illegal file sharing in the future and also delete all the files you have obtained and in return the RIAA promises to not file any lawsuit against you
Now mind you there is no info on how much info the RIAA will take from you in doing this or what they will do with it once they have it.Oh yeah, this also doesn't protect you from any other company that wants to file against you
So what do you think...that the RIAA is not getting as many of the evil pirates(arrr matey) that they had hoped for and are doing this to get those people that haven't quite got their pirate status yet?

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Ramblings For 08-28-03
I taunt because i can >>21:20pm<<
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Ramblings For 08-27-03
well i'm all a flutter >>22:37pm<<
>> Mood | anxious <<

You know i really do like my new dentist
The last time i went in he told me that my gums were healing up nicely (they look normal now) and that he was ready to start all the serious work(i.e. root canal)..which happens tomorrow.....I asked him about how long he thought it would take and he said "Oh about 2hrs or so ...unless i'm in a bad mood, then i'll just keep you in the chair all day" He then flashes me a evil grin and we both get a good laugh..you just have to love a dentist with odd sense of humor ..i know i do
With any luck i'll get some good pain killers for the after effects of the root canal(yay drugs!!)

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*giggle*..but a prophet of what ?? >>22:35pm<<
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Ramblings For 08-22-03
>>02:00am<<

Greens
Circle I Limbo

Osama bin Laden
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

Saddam Hussein
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

Rednecks
Circle IV Rolling Weights

George Bush
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

General asshats
Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

PETA Members
Circle VII Burning Sands

NAMBLA Members
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell

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